Forget about god... i feel like u alot.. i sorta betrayed my freinds.. i hate my parents and i was so drugged up for a while and depressed that now while im trying to catch up on everything it all seems to clutter up and suffocate me... i remember tho that i had some good music to keep me going and i still do now..
yea ur right tho i remember looking to get emancipated from my parents but dude theres not enough money in the average 16 year olds pocket to do that and i had saved around 10K from work and childhood bday money my communion etc...
look man i use to fight with my mom like everyday and my dad who speaks like 0 english didnt do crap.. learn to live with them becuz there gonna be ur final ticket out of here when u go to college.
when all fails u need to just pick up whatchu can and w8 for the next best opportunity.
i had a gf through a good time of my depression and she would always tell me things would always get better and ya know what... im making it through and i should be in college soon.
but look man i was drugged up alot of the time and actually found myself playing an online game... dont do that and dont do anything that when u look at it will have gotten u nowhere. (example : that online game i played.. i got to lvl 130 and realized that i didnt accomplish anything i wanted to be proud of)
So look to the future... im almost done with my hell and i have a fairly nice bod, worked on myself alot, did things to make me look/feel better etc
Dont lose site of what u need to do. If u cant get a scholarship ur gonna need mom and dad to pay for college so yea... learn to live with them.